You are dirt.

Unconsciously i touched you... I awake and see I'm still here,
I reach out in the night, and all i feel is air..
Mask myself to hide this demon, its poison from the sun
My tainted skin now golden, i sit and watched those confused birds play
I wished i felt as free as they, but trapt is here where i lay..
Bow to me and I'll come to you you,See my face, and your eyes will shatter, 
this spell will break,If you see the real monster,
The shame runs deep inside this sinful body,built a mask of diamonds, but have a heart of clay...
I will never give you a crown, I will make you dirt, I may fool you now, but in this chest is a crumbling stone, 
I can feel you sinking through my clothes, this invasion drowns me in guilt,
Could i destroy it all, every castle I've created, every wall I've built,collapse this whole empire of mine...? for you..  
Disgusting am i? this violation of body is rotting my skin,your warm embrace melts my frost bitten spirit,
You held my hand and i felt it.........
I can't walk on water, i wont give you gold, i will never smile...
but..I could share my paint,Dig inside my bones, rip out my throat, i will bleed for you, colors
And paint a world of worms.......
I'll tear a hole in your stomach, climb inside, eat your heart and come back to life............

I can make you feel good, you can make me feel bad

I'll never get you back so you'll never be sad.

The cracks turned to holes.
I only seen you,in between the devil and the angel,
Suddenly i know Your not here and i don't care,
hands untied,you're out of my control
I unmasked the beast i see just who you are,
You've always seen through me you knew the witch was there, i made it very clear, you hid in disguise of heaven but when i looked closely,i seen the fire of hell,
it burned so passionately i couldn't escape, but it began to melt my skin,
so thin it starts to break
i paint myself red,
shame,evil,tears
I'm still here, disgustingly awaiting your call.
But i know this time every thing's fallen apart, this time there is no new start.
The holes are poked there is no second chances, the truth has been seen, and i knew it all along.
The future is lost,the love is gone,the tears are dried,and the care has run out.
This viscous life sucking love has finally died.


I can make you feel good, you can make me feel bad
I'll never get you back so you'll never be sad.

Unforgiven.

Don't speak.


I love to watch you suffering silently, with anger written on your face.
Breathing, pitch and fork.
'Cause I know you hate me,
I've heard your lies before.
I dreamed I washed your lovely face,
And brought forth a child,
Though I know your telling lies
still i remain quiet,clinging tightly to your heart, drooling to tear it apart.


Beneath the cracks on painted glass,
Time will not forgive,
Counting down on her tiny hands,
History relived.
And born of the scars and broken veins,
Whisper of our child,
I see her grow and stretch her limbs,
To bless her daddy's fake smile.

Rose pedals.

I want to send you a rose, a rose of my dreams, as you peel away, my dreams fade away, i can't stop thinking, any moment of being without you, please don't cleanse my dreams away, its all i have as i lay---in this box,and scratch at the wall, i can only imagine whats outside, i can only imagine what it will bring me,i can wish and hope to someday see.
You berried the key to your  secrets in your skin....I dig and peel at the rotten grim,and all i find is him,again.
I watch your shadow,go into battle, upon my ceiling with a golden shield & sword,eyes filled with rage,for a moment i could almost reach you,then suddenly you fade....
Not even the toxic lake can wash away this ache.
the pulsing walls around me keep me in this cage,Orgasm is just the camouflage for what induces shame....
I want to send you a rose, a rose of my heart, each pedal is each fingernail i broke trying to escape,to find you,i will never give up,Until its you i see,I've got A million miles to walk before i can sleep.